11.75

11.75 That is what is left in my checking account when I went to pay bills this morning which means I can pay my two remaining bills on Friday when I get paid and hope the small check lasts me two more weeks.After a weekend in St Louis where I didn't shop at all (those who know me know how difficult this is) this doesn't  sit well with me. Since Paige has started daycare, I am paying a significant amount  more in childcare (about 3 times what I was)I hate stressing about how to pay my bills. I know that Chad will help anytime I need it, but it brings me to tears that after working the hours that I work and stressing about work on the evenings and weekends that I can't pay discounted childcare, my car payment, tv bill, phone bill, water, and heat. Chad already pays everything else- our house, our food, our taxes, our insurance, gas, anything that comes up and anything else the girls need or want. It makes me wonder what I should do. I have completely stopped shopping for everything except necessities and birthday gifts since I found out about the pay-cut. I love that my job challenges me and that I have seniority and vacation time and that I can take addi to work with me when I need to and that one of my very closest friends is my boss and that I help so many families and that they work with me for all of our many doctor appointments. I am rambling but my brain is racing and I am lost. Do I stick it out for one year until Emmy goes to Kindergarten when it will go back to a larger discount? Welcome back stress way to greet me on a Monday morning.