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Sometimes you just need a break!!!! You need to take a break from trying to be Supermom, leader, role model, substitute teacher, nurse, therapist, dance mom, drug screener, igloo maker (don't ask) creative problem solver,  wife, housekeeper, cook, babysitter  of children and adults, accountant, friend- (wait I don't have time for those) and anything anyone else needs you to be!!! Unfortunately after the craptastic week that I have had ( I will spare all the long uninteresting details) I don't want to wear any of the fore mentioned caps I am wearing. Instead of taking the weekend to unwind and regroup and spend some much needed quality time with my  children who are acting ungrateful and entitled, I spent the past two nights with a room full of loud children and dozens of dance moms ( picture night and dress rehearsal night) and unfortunately there is no end in sight we will be there from 11:30 til about 9 or 10 tonight  for two performances where I will leave in between to pump or nurse and give my children all of their required medications, then we will wake up get everyone ready for church and work the nursery and do one more show tomorrow. I want to be the mom who is excited for her children and glad we have found an extracurricular activity that both girls can enjoy, but dammit I don't even get to see them perform because I will be backstage entertaining them and trying to keep them busy with busy bags and all the other things I should have packed or made this week to compete with all the moms who had the entire week to press their outfits and buy or make organic snacks and get a ribbon for each one of the 25 performances their child will be in. We have one dance and one costume for each girl and I swear if there was more than that I might lose it. Mom of the year here spanked her child in front of her cousins who probably think I am a monster now I also met the girls dance teacher face to face last night and she made sure to say "oh is this your mom Emmy?" I usually just see your dad. Well young dance lady with your perfect hair and pedicure and no children -in between bouts of vomiting from an intense pregnancy, delivering a baby and feeding her every two hours of life for the first eight weeks,  stressing about her health and returning to a high stress low paying job, and breaking my back to be able to come to three practices,who do you think lays out the dance outfits for dad and keeps the baby that I need to nurse and plans dinner around the dance time after workin a friggin twelve hour day because someone called off? I would love to be available weekly at five to attend but my schedule doesn't allow for that. I would have also loved to be in a great mood and post adorable pics of the girls in their dance costumes but unfortunately my camera on my phone is full because I haven't had a minute this stupid week to myself for anything! I am going to enjoy a quiet cup of coffee before the madness begins. Oh wait no I am not because I am nursing. How is this for keeping it real?