now what?

We said our goodbyes.
We cried and cried.
We made all the choices to honor his life.
We got busy in planning and getting prepared to show he was loved and just how much we cared.
Then came sadness because it was the day that we had to face everyone and hear what they had to say.
We made it through the line about 600 long then went for some drinks to keep his "party" going strong.
Then the party ended and we all slept so well I think it was the Jack but no one will ever tell.
Finally the dreaded day was here that we said the final goodbyes through our tears.
We ended with lunch and then parted ways and this is where we are on the very same day.
Nothing feels the same, it won't ever again and that is the realization that is slowing sinking in.
So now what I don't know
The only answer that comes to me is...
I guess day by day and move forward real slow.
We don't want to do this without you but are given no choice and we long for some comfort and to just hear your voice.
Anger sets in because it seems so unfair we just want him here and we will always care...
Now what?